by Kai Sin™ ♥

还有8个小时 2011要结束了， 把不快乐的回忆留在2011好了，我不想把它带到2012去 这一年里，我长大了不少 我历经了友情的考验和爱情的考验 让我学会了怎样处理 怎样摆平 我失去了一个友情却得来了爱情 我已经把那段友情列入过客名单里 不在乎了。 爱情的世界里我是个软弱的人 我不知道怎样维持怎样处理 现在的我 真的有想过放弃这段爱情 但是 被我打消了念头 表面上我知道他没有做过背叛我的事情 但是暗地里呢？我知道吗？ 吉隆坡是个复杂的地方 我不保证那一段时间他没有做过什么事情 他甚至有时间上网 我亲眼看到他的facebook online 我告诉我自己那是他的姐姐用他的profile 心理好过些 但是又让我看到了一些东西 为什么他总是注意那个女生？ 我们已经为她吵了很多次 他还是一样的 他不喜欢我跟其他男生接近我已经保持距离了 我为了他我改变了一切 我知道我已经变了 不需要别人来提醒我 但是他呢？ 他为了我变吗？ 我还记得他之前说的：为了一个男生来破坏我们的感情，值得吗？ 那他呢？ 他是否也有想过这一段话？ 为了一个女生来破坏我们感情，值得吗？ 删除了她的号码 算什么？ 可是他不知道 他是舍不得删除她的号码才会在我的面前讲很多次 提起表示在意 你还在意对吧？ 这几天过得很不开心 很难表达出来 我的心已经在容纳不下了 是时候需要发泄了 我会没事的 Wish you all Happy New Year and have a nice countdown :D Leave all unhappy thing at 2011, waiting 2012 coming happily :)

去回一趟那里的你， 好像变了， 为什么我感觉不出你觉得自己的错？ 反而好像是我的错？ 你连道歉都没那么的诚意 我就心软的原谅你 我这样做是好事吗？ 我不相信你连一分钟打信息给我都没有， 还骗我说电话有问题？ 呵~ 讲骗话。 你那爱赞别人的状态还是改不了， 而且又不是男生的 跟你争吵了有什么用？ 你还是一样的。 算了吧 勉强是得不来幸福的， 你到底还在不在乎这段感情？ 我 真的 累了 你 也  变了

现在的我 理不出什么情绪来 我只知道现在的我很无助 没人能够了解 眼眶里溢满了泪水 坚持的不让它落下 可是我能坚持多久？ 你到底发生什么事了？ 我好想知道 可是你却说你做好了你的东西才来找我 对不起有什么用 你根本就不顾虑我的感受 你很自私 你知道吗？ 好像全世界的人都知道你发生什么事 只有我这个女朋友不知道 可笑吧？ 笑吧 我自己也觉得好笑 像笨蛋一样拼命的按电话看有你的信息吗 没有没有总是没有 你说我不依赖你 不依赖你是件好事 现在依赖你变成这样的后果 自己真的好笨， 不应该相信你说的每一句话 我对我自己说， 这一次我不会那么的心软！

我很不开心 ！！): 一 直按电话没有他的信息， 我又像上次一样很担心 我发了很多封信息和电话可是没有回应。 终于， 他 回复我了 但是 却令我很失望 很伤心 白担心 算了  :(

拉不下脸的友情 不算真正的友情， 以条件作为交友的选择 这种友情 我瞧不起它， 不被信任的友情 勉强维持下去也没有用。 迟来的一封信。。。。 挑拨离间的人固然可恶，然而 若是朋友之间有足够的信任， 又怎么会轻易听信谗言 让珍贵的友谊受到破坏？ 信任不足 实则更加悲哀。 人与人之间的关系 除了努力 也须要靠缘分 对于我们无法控制的事情 尽力就够了 不必勉强 也不由得我们去勉强。  我 失望了。。 

Today have a shopping with my mom, two sister and aunt :) We go Sunway pyramid nearly ten o'clock from klang and reached there almost 10.30am Then we directly go to the shop one by one non stop ! xD And bought many thing over there for Chinese New Year one hehee so happy what we bought x) Girl who dont like shopping? The feeling when you buy a thing which you like is so awesome. Money doesn't matter la, can own back. Money can buy happiness? :D And mom said : Shopping is an exercise too x)))) I met Wann Fong at Pyramid. She is my classmate when we are form 1. Luckily we still can recognise and give a smile for each other :) Actually I want to go Genting Highlands countdown with them on 31 December 2011 and stay a night at there. But there is no room for us so the planing forced to cancel :(((( He forced to stay at house meanwhile his friend all at Genting :X * So sad * T.T Hope he has planing to countdown with his friend or go Genting with their friend and share s...

Today is Tang Yuan Day :D But my mom not cook it and pray due to my grandfather death. And today my sister will be taking her result at school, No asking , No thinking , No doubting ! As i think, she get a super super good result :) Congratz! to her xD And then you know what? My dad bought her a lot of durians HAHAA laugh die me x)) Actually no like that -.- my dad just simply bought it and eat Of course two of my parent happy with my sister result xD Okay~ Say back that day which i will be hearing amali on Monday. That day, I didnt go heard it! I very angry !! That aunty say she has inform me when I was having exam that day, But i no heard she has said it. Then, she come my house fetch me on Monday. Of course that day i was sleep like pig on 8.00am After i wake up, i checked my phone showed one missed call from aunty First sentences she say : You wake up liao ar? I answered : Yea, then what time? She say just now i go your house but no people come out, i called you...

现在好闷 ): 他和朋友出去了没有信息 应该是在驾车吧 很闷啊~偷偷跑来玩电脑 他不给我玩 可是又不陪我 这也不能怪我！ 不懂跑到哪里 鬼混 车一好就乱乱走 又乱花钱~ 刚刚看了十分红演唱会 很不错 最好看的是叮当 最喜欢她了 声音又好听人又美 现在真的不知道要做什么了 一直按电话没有他的信息够失望了~ 我去睡觉了 晚安啦 ：） <3

These few day i keep going out :) until my mom keep nagging at me. hehehe so what? Enjoy happy is important xD Tuesday 13.12.2011 We headed new jj for watching 那些年我们一起追的女孩 :) He followed me go to watch. Due his car problem, his friend fetch we go new jj which means i have separated with them, i didnt sit bus with them but we meet at cinema. The movie, for me is quite ok only =.= the ending the two didnt together but they have feeling through each other.. how sad? Then u go to Kim Gary for our lunch. He didnt followed us because i ask him eat with his friend. After that, we celebrated Salma birthday at Secret Recipe. Although is just a piece of small cake but we knew she is happy because she get many surprise by us hehee Happy Birthday, Salma! Wednesday 14.12.2011 That day, i watched 大英雄小男人 again! HAHAA with my mom and two sister :) Wasted money? my answer NO, because they happy me happy. And not me pay the ticket too :D After i experienced that thing, i checked the time on ...

Today. Happened something very weird. -.- After end our last BC paper. We headed JJ to buy ticket 大英雄小男人 :) this movie quite fun. 鸡凸and 噢咦哦 xD these two word not suit me a lot, i will just type at here once only, will not talk from my mouth :] Okay~ is time to say the story. After that, is the time to in cinema, we had check the ticket with the people who check the ticket. He just tear our ticket without check properly. We go to the cinema and found our place but our place have other people sat. We thought we in the wrong cinema but the ticket showed 4. We checked our ticket with the people who sit our place. And you know what?!!! Our ticket was two o'clock one but that time was already 4.15pm O.O Our expression like :O why become like this? We want the ticket which is 4.15 but the seller give us 2.00 one! And the people who tear the ticket doesn't checked properly but we are still going to buy a new ticket again, we missed the earlier part of the movie but still catch up ...

Today they all are having Ekonomi test, last two subject :) Tomorrow will be last subject BC, but im not in the mood to do BC revision :X I scare i will failed BC. because the level is so high than other subject ): Yesterday, we have one and half hour break while examing Prinsip Perakaunan. Not that difficult as i think, u all too rite? Hehee hope we can get a good result :) And my friend thank the 'big ear' for paying our cost in Mamudah hehee quite happy he do that to me xD Let we PIA for tommorrow :) last day to stay at Kwang Hua and we need to return our text book for the last time. No more SPM, no more secondary school life :) My sincere wishes : wish all my friend have a good future in their life. :) and always come out lim teh. 能参的朋友就交出来一起玩 :D

Hehee :) my SPM still leave two more subject two days to go :) After two day we can have our enjoyable holiday with around two three month! But i think we will bored with this long holiday :X After SPM i want to get my car licence as soon as possible :D Who say shorty is hardly to drive car? Cheh~ And then manage my book cupboard cleanly. Because of exam, my cupboard was messy like moutain -.- luckily mom still not scold me hehee~ Hmmmm.. I want to say again. Unless your name are google, if not dont judge my story without knowing my history. I knew i have mentioned about this many times but people still do like this. I fed up while hearing about this zz And so you are not qualified to do about that, okay? Pek cek :\ !!