by Kai Sin™ ♥

还有8个小时 2011要结束了， 把不快乐的回忆留在2011好了，我不想把它带到2012去 这一年里，我长大了不少 我历经了友情的考验和爱情的考验 让我学会了怎样处理 怎样摆平 我失去了一个友情却得来了爱情 我已经把那段友情列入过客名单里 不在乎了。 爱情的世界里我是个软弱的人 我不知道怎样维持怎样处理 现在的我 真的有想过放弃这段爱情 但是 被我打消了念头 表面上我知道他没有做过背叛我的事情 但是暗地里呢？我知道吗？ 吉隆坡是个复杂的地方 我不保证那一段时间他没有做过什么事情 他甚至有时间上网 我亲眼看到他的facebook online 我告诉我自己那是他的姐姐用他的profile 心理好过些 但是又让我看到了一些东西 为什么他总是注意那个女生？ 我们已经为她吵了很多次 他还是一样的 他不喜欢我跟其他男生接近我已经保持距离了 我为了他我改变了一切 我知道我已经变了 不需要别人来提醒我 但是他呢？ 他为了我变吗？ 我还记得他之前说的：为了一个男生来破坏我们的感情，值得吗？ 那他呢？ 他是否也有想过这一段话？ 为了一个女生来破坏我们感情，值得吗？ 删除了她的号码 算什么？ 可是他不知道 他是舍不得删除她的号码才会在我的面前讲很多次 提起表示在意 你还在意对吧？ 这几天过得很不开心 很难表达出来 我的心已经在容纳不下了 是时候需要发泄了 我会没事的 Wish you all Happy New Year and have a nice countdown :D Leave all unhappy thing at 2011, waiting 2012 coming happily :)

去回一趟那里的你， 好像变了， 为什么我感觉不出你觉得自己的错？ 反而好像是我的错？ 你连道歉都没那么的诚意 我就心软的原谅你 我这样做是好事吗？ 我不相信你连一分钟打信息给我都没有， 还骗我说电话有问题？ 呵~ 讲骗话。 你那爱赞别人的状态还是改不了， 而且又不是男生的 跟你争吵了有什么用？ 你还是一样的。 算了吧 勉强是得不来幸福的， 你到底还在不在乎这段感情？ 我 真的 累了 你 也  变了

现在的我 理不出什么情绪来 我只知道现在的我很无助 没人能够了解 眼眶里溢满了泪水 坚持的不让它落下 可是我能坚持多久？ 你到底发生什么事了？ 我好想知道 可是你却说你做好了你的东西才来找我 对不起有什么用 你根本就不顾虑我的感受 你很自私 你知道吗？ 好像全世界的人都知道你发生什么事 只有我这个女朋友不知道 可笑吧？ 笑吧 我自己也觉得好笑 像笨蛋一样拼命的按电话看有你的信息吗 没有没有总是没有 你说我不依赖你 不依赖你是件好事 现在依赖你变成这样的后果 自己真的好笨， 不应该相信你说的每一句话 我对我自己说， 这一次我不会那么的心软！

我很不开心 ！！): 一 直按电话没有他的信息， 我又像上次一样很担心 我发了很多封信息和电话可是没有回应。 终于， 他 回复我了 但是 却令我很失望 很伤心 白担心 算了  :(

拉不下脸的友情 不算真正的友情， 以条件作为交友的选择 这种友情 我瞧不起它， 不被信任的友情 勉强维持下去也没有用。 迟来的一封信。。。。 挑拨离间的人固然可恶，然而 若是朋友之间有足够的信任， 又怎么会轻易听信谗言 让珍贵的友谊受到破坏？ 信任不足 实则更加悲哀。 人与人之间的关系 除了努力 也须要靠缘分 对于我们无法控制的事情 尽力就够了 不必勉强 也不由得我们去勉强。  我 失望了。。 

Today have a shopping with my mom, two sister and aunt :) We go Sunway pyramid nearly ten o'clock from klang and reached there almost 10.30am Then we directly go to the shop one by one non stop ! xD And bought many thing over there for Chinese New Year one hehee so happy what we bought x) Girl who dont like shopping? The feeling when you buy a thing which you like is so awesome. Money doesn't matter la, can own back. Money can buy happiness? :D And mom said : Shopping is an exercise too x)))) I met Wann Fong at Pyramid. She is my classmate when we are form 1. Luckily we still can recognise and give a smile for each other :) Actually I want to go Genting Highlands countdown with them on 31 December 2011 and stay a night at there. But there is no room for us so the planing forced to cancel :(((( He forced to stay at house meanwhile his friend all at Genting :X * So sad * T.T Hope he has planing to countdown with his friend or go Genting with their friend and share s...

Today is Tang Yuan Day :D But my mom not cook it and pray due to my grandfather death. And today my sister will be taking her result at school, No asking , No thinking , No doubting ! As i think, she get a super super good result :) Congratz! to her xD And then you know what? My dad bought her a lot of durians HAHAA laugh die me x)) Actually no like that -.- my dad just simply bought it and eat Of course two of my parent happy with my sister result xD Okay~ Say back that day which i will be hearing amali on Monday. That day, I didnt go heard it! I very angry !! That aunty say she has inform me when I was having exam that day, But i no heard she has said it. Then, she come my house fetch me on Monday. Of course that day i was sleep like pig on 8.00am After i wake up, i checked my phone showed one missed call from aunty First sentences she say : You wake up liao ar? I answered : Yea, then what time? She say just now i go your house but no people come out, i called you...

现在好闷 ): 他和朋友出去了没有信息 应该是在驾车吧 很闷啊~偷偷跑来玩电脑 他不给我玩 可是又不陪我 这也不能怪我！ 不懂跑到哪里 鬼混 车一好就乱乱走 又乱花钱~ 刚刚看了十分红演唱会 很不错 最好看的是叮当 最喜欢她了 声音又好听人又美 现在真的不知道要做什么了 一直按电话没有他的信息够失望了~ 我去睡觉了 晚安啦 ：） <3

These few day i keep going out :) until my mom keep nagging at me. hehehe so what? Enjoy happy is important xD Tuesday 13.12.2011 We headed new jj for watching 那些年我们一起追的女孩 :) He followed me go to watch. Due his car problem, his friend fetch we go new jj which means i have separated with them, i didnt sit bus with them but we meet at cinema. The movie, for me is quite ok only =.= the ending the two didnt together but they have feeling through each other.. how sad? Then u go to Kim Gary for our lunch. He didnt followed us because i ask him eat with his friend. After that, we celebrated Salma birthday at Secret Recipe. Although is just a piece of small cake but we knew she is happy because she get many surprise by us hehee Happy Birthday, Salma! Wednesday 14.12.2011 That day, i watched 大英雄小男人 again! HAHAA with my mom and two sister :) Wasted money? my answer NO, because they happy me happy. And not me pay the ticket too :D After i experienced that thing, i checked the time on ...

Today. Happened something very weird. -.- After end our last BC paper. We headed JJ to buy ticket 大英雄小男人 :) this movie quite fun. 鸡凸and 噢咦哦 xD these two word not suit me a lot, i will just type at here once only, will not talk from my mouth :] Okay~ is time to say the story. After that, is the time to in cinema, we had check the ticket with the people who check the ticket. He just tear our ticket without check properly. We go to the cinema and found our place but our place have other people sat. We thought we in the wrong cinema but the ticket showed 4. We checked our ticket with the people who sit our place. And you know what?!!! Our ticket was two o'clock one but that time was already 4.15pm O.O Our expression like :O why become like this? We want the ticket which is 4.15 but the seller give us 2.00 one! And the people who tear the ticket doesn't checked properly but we are still going to buy a new ticket again, we missed the earlier part of the movie but still catch up ...

Today they all are having Ekonomi test, last two subject :) Tomorrow will be last subject BC, but im not in the mood to do BC revision :X I scare i will failed BC. because the level is so high than other subject ): Yesterday, we have one and half hour break while examing Prinsip Perakaunan. Not that difficult as i think, u all too rite? Hehee hope we can get a good result :) And my friend thank the 'big ear' for paying our cost in Mamudah hehee quite happy he do that to me xD Let we PIA for tommorrow :) last day to stay at Kwang Hua and we need to return our text book for the last time. No more SPM, no more secondary school life :) My sincere wishes : wish all my friend have a good future in their life. :) and always come out lim teh. 能参的朋友就交出来一起玩 :D

Hehee :) my SPM still leave two more subject two days to go :) After two day we can have our enjoyable holiday with around two three month! But i think we will bored with this long holiday :X After SPM i want to get my car licence as soon as possible :D Who say shorty is hardly to drive car? Cheh~ And then manage my book cupboard cleanly. Because of exam, my cupboard was messy like moutain -.- luckily mom still not scold me hehee~ Hmmmm.. I want to say again. Unless your name are google, if not dont judge my story without knowing my history. I knew i have mentioned about this many times but people still do like this. I fed up while hearing about this zz And so you are not qualified to do about that, okay? Pek cek :\ !!

星期五 补习到很多个小时 :X 但是却觉得时间过的比呆在家更快 :) 玉够来载我去吃了 为了她对补习的朋友讲了一点点的小骗话 因为她不敢载到很多人 这样也好让我们有机会讲话 :) 也解开了当时的谜 真是很开心 如果你不在意一段友情 就算再怎么生疏你也会这样算了 如果你在意一段友情 哪怕是有一点小误会你都会要解开 这是我个人的看法 我以前有个很要好的朋友 天天一起等巴士一起坐 可是现在的我们好陌生 就算站在一起 我都不知道如何开口找话题 也许是不同放学的时间吧 让我们真的好陌生 :\ 以前她还会帮我画seni考试 教我怎样上色 现在确实很重要的考试 我有想过叫她帮忙可是难以开口 -.- 还是算了吧 不想让她讲我是有事情才找她的。 Blog是个开放式的网站 有人告诉才知道原来google可以找到你要找那人的blog 虽然我有想过要把我的blog给set as privacy 可是还要invite人很麻烦 所以就把那个念头给打消了 我不知道有谁看了我的blog 真的好想知道 =.= 就算状态再怎么没有表态名字 我都能依然觉得那个人是我 我希望不是我的错觉 :) 我不是什么很好的女生或是美女 快快的放弃是最好的..:] 如果你的好朋友找到另一个好朋友， 你会比失恋更伤心.. I Agree :) Wish u all have a enjoyful Sunday.. :)

刚刚要登入的时候 发生了一些小插曲。 我以为我忘了password吓到我　: 机个礼拜没开我以为我老了？:D 原来把hotmail打了hotmail -.- 如此的笨　ｘＤ 话说，那天去了 Emily 的家做revision 虽然是蛮开心的　但是后来发生了不愉快的事 详情我就不说了　不可以给很多人知道的 这几天　我想了很久 我以为我有了很要好得他　但是他的占有欲好强　时常不喜欢我跟朋友出去甚至是补习 我不喜欢　真的。 可是我不敢告诉他 我怕我们又吵架。 短短的几个月 我们吵了很多次 连我自己也算不到 我曾经告诉他 他绑我绑到好紧 但是他说他就是这样 甚至我告诉他我补习会补到很久 他却讲补什么补 有时候 我觉得好难呼吸 我要的是 自由空间。 我不勉强什么 我只要空间 只要他不那么的绑我。 跟朋友出去回来 始终不开心的人是我 当他觉得我不开心 一直逼问我 我却说我没事 两个人不开心 好过一个人不开心 对吗? 选着他是我的决定 你们要笑要批评 随你们吧 不懂怎样告诉朋友的事就只能来这里了 虽然现在是考试时期 可是你们知道吗 心里有事情很难专心的温习 妈妈这几天不懂怎么了 老是不怎么的信任我 是不是我把她对我的信任给毁了？ 我不知道。 我曾经有那么想坦白地问她原因 可是我没有那个勇气 是不是因为两年前 阿姨对妈妈说要特别注意我的原因？ 我实在想不透 妈妈老是这样的怀疑有时让我很不舒服 可是 让我很不舒服的事情还有很多呢 哥哥的回来有时让我很不自在 谁说 有大哥大姐是那么开心的事？ 我不这么得觉得 也许你们会说我身在福中不知福 但是你们不是我 你们不知道那种感觉 妈妈说小时候跟我最好的哪个不是妹妹 是哥哥 可是他怎样对我呢？ 我做错事 他瞪我摆出那个样子 我讲话  他也瞪我 这些都是小时候的事 也许我是那个该被瞪的 可是现在我十七岁了 他也没有那个权力再那样对我 我曾经在妈妈面前发脾气过说最好他快点回去马六甲 妈妈骂我很够力还说他是我的哥哥 不应该这样讲 试问他有对我这个妹妹好吗？ 就让时间把这一段不愉快的事快快的冲走 是那么的不希望这些不开心的事情一直在我的心理。 好了 发泄完了 也该温习science了 :)

I will be leaving here for three week  :) I will be facing my SPM on next monday , Wish you all luck,  :] Wish me luck too, Hehee, BYE! My readers :) wait me after my SPM :))

我跟你们讲， 现在我的心情很七上八下， 我不知道为什么): 脑海子都是毕业典礼 毕业典礼 =.=没有参加可是很兴奋 我中学生涯的毕业典礼会是怎样？ 精彩? 开心？伤心？还是普通？ 我真的无法想象 ): 明天可能是我和我的好朋友最后一次一起下课了 我好舍不得！ 为什么时间就过得那么快？ 还有两天 还有两天就 毕业 了。 真的 好想抱抱我的好朋友 ): 因为我舍不得她们 也舍不得充满回忆的学校 ):

Have a wonderful day of Deepavali :) Just came back from outside with Chloe, her Bf, him and their friends. We go sunway had our lunch then go to new jj to watch Real Steel , but the ticket had finished so we had our dinner then back home. I ask Chloe to come my house fetch me because i already get my mom permission to go out and honest to her that Chloe bf will fetch me. But then, her bf go langgar something in front of my house. =.= Luckily my mom not get angry >.< Mom still tell me after that she arrange that thing, some more a car langgar again -.- My mom used to it d xD Oh yea, we also visit my neighbour house. For those who come my house before sure know that mostly my neighbour was indian. They treated we eat. Every year, my neighbour also will treated we eat mutton kari :) Nitezz :]

 Saturday, I was having Pizza as my lunch :) We tested the newest pizza that have many cheese one xD its taste not bad la, just have many cheese >.< Sunday, having McDonald as my lunch again! Hahaaa! So happy xD because i can directly eat two fast food but then after these two meal, i think i will become a fatty girl ): While do revision Sejarah. I scare i cant memorize then write it down on a paper hehee -.- after that, lazy to do revision again. How come?! Im so lazy, u know? :S Yesterday, have no electric current on the 10.00 sharp. It is the important time because we want to watch the movie, after 10 min it comes back again! :) I watched this movie this few day, and i had watched finish. That KY la! After PMR, online, watch Hong Kong movie, make me and my sister cant concentrate on studies, follow she watch zzz but this movie really NICE! Especially the 杨怡.. I like so much, her hairstyle is so in xD Lastly : I have cut my fringe :)

Got to see so many school life's photo through facebook! It is so obvious that many form 5 student are prepare for their graduation, including my class :) Have a dance pratice at 5A6. And taking photo everywhere, but we are still havent have a proper group photo. Nvm, after deepavali holiday ok? We still have a day to capture every corner of Kwang Hua! Even with teacher too :P G.R.A.D.U.A.T.I.O.N ~ **************** 现在11.38pm了 好想睡觉 但是那只笨蛋睡着了 很多次了 没关系  我原谅他！ 不小心开了以前的他为我写的部落格 虽然不是什么长篇大论但是那个三个字始终触动了我的心 请不要说我对现在的他不公平 我对他可是很公平的！我自己清楚我已经放下了以前的他 才去接受的 这一次的感情和上一次的感情 有很大不同 上一次的是笨笨得没什么经验 现在呢 却是成熟的  这是我的感受。 不可重友轻色 他会骂我是最笨的 因为大多数的有男朋友的女生都是这样 只有我还是重友轻色 但是 我依然能管理这两方面的关系。 请不要担心, Li teng :)  我知道他是个像流氓的人 其实他很像小孩子 真的 这个东西就不必表露酱多 这是我们之间的秘密 :P 对不起了 如果他有得罪到你的话 请别见谅。 其实 我不比理会别人怎样说怎样看我的  因为他们不是重要的人  这是他'骂'我的。 他还说 知心朋友几个就好 酱多来干嘛 有事情的时候他们睬你都不得空啦！ 好像有一点点的道理。>.< 他有点霸道的。就如毕业典礼的吧 他不准我参加跳舞之类的东西 好吧 这一次就听他的 因为我自己也不想参加了 麻烦多多 :) 明天不要跟他好了 晚安 读者们 :P 你要把它当作是我们之间的秘密， 我可没告诉任何人哦.. :D...

The day before today, means yesterday la xD Was have fun at my class, take photo around with friendss :) Siuhui is a person who be my classmate for 5 years and sit together for 5 years. 5 years u know?! But still didnt know her well, just know she is easily to bully xD Not so nice but still memorable :P * Captured this photo during moral period, geng lea xD These two kinna ask them take photo properly but then pattern many many xD Still have some photo, but lazy to upload.. :) Bye~ ^^

When I was fully believe you, Please! Dont destroy my believe of you. Do you know, Believe a person is according how the person treat you and get along each other for a long time. And please dont hurt me, ): My heart is also same like you will broken and get hurt. If you not do this for me, Thanks for your cooperate.. :) I dont know what i want to express actually :(

我好想要呐喊！发泄我心中的不开心！ 可是 没有一个地方让我发泄 我好辛苦。 这几天的补习 让我有一种从来没有的感觉 我也不知道为什么突然会有这个感觉 我有试着去不要想这样多 但是那种感觉无法停止 直到昨天 我有了勇气去询问我的朋友 我没有直接地告诉她, 在补习的时候我觉得她不想跟我讲话 让我觉得好尴尬 而 我却问她 是不是生气我? 她 问我是不是想太多了. 我也这么认为 顿时这个人很开心起来. 但是... 今天 她告诉我了一些事情 让我有些摸不着 好想问个清楚 她说 我听听就算了. 好吧, 我知道严重性. 不想让你为难。 朋友 我不是想要表达什么 我只是想要发泄我心中的不开心而已真的。我不想这个事情影响到我们之间的友情  也希望你不会感到不应该告诉我这件事情咯！ 明天会没事的, :P 　其他人就不须知道这件事情的来龙去脉 :)

刚才突然从睡梦中惊醒 一睁开眼就想 今天原本有读书的 但是 我又缺席了 然后连忙看手机的日历 在光华的日子 已不多 真的 你们去看日历 我们再读一个礼拜 然后又放印度人新年的假期 开学回来 应该是毕业典礼了吧？ 想着想着 突然眼眶有了泪水 时间总是过得那么快。 当 在初中一的时候 盼望能快点毕业 如今 真的要毕业了 确是有很多不舍得。 我不舍得是 再也以后没得和自己的好朋友 等巴士 上课 下课 上学 嘻嘻闹闹 打成一片。这些日子以后还有吗？ 考完SPM后 朋友们各奔东西 读书的读书 做工的做工 见面的机会有多少？ SPM 真得很让人喘不过气。 为什么一定要考SPM?! 很讨厌 真的 每当想起 很多科目还不稳定 SPM一定会死翘翘 就很害怕 很害怕 你们知道吗 我不肯定自己能不能够拿至少两个A回来。 哥哥拿 6/7个A 姐姐拿 5个A 而 我呢？ 我在不争气点 我一定又会被家里的人瞧不起的。 懂我的意思了吗？我不想说到很明白 你们应该懂了吧? 呵呵 觉得自己很倒霉 拼命的做revision可是还是考到哪种鸟成绩出来 虽然 这次的考试全科及格 但是我还是很不满意！ 看着 别人考到很好 心里总是不好受 为何我就不能？ 我注定要让别人瞧不起吗？ 不行！我告诉我自己 我一定要成功这一次！ 大家一起加油吧。 (加油) 是Chloe经常说的 我注意很久了 : 一两个月过后就不需要这样了 :) 呃~ 刚刚发一封信息给我的妹妹 她终于考完了 好羡慕。。

Trial has finished on Tuesday. Account paper was the last paper for account class. Unfortunately i was sick that day. Beginning was flu on monday then sore throat at night, midnight i felt whole body cold and hot then trembling with sweating. It was so weird rite? Cold some more sweating >.< I didnt sleep well that day, and not doing account revision for that day, i scare my account cant even get B ): The next day, i woke up with headache. I brought some medicine to school. Ask him bought me a bread so that i can eat medicine before exam. Thank god that my headache was recover while Paper 1 :) I thought i was recover after i back from tuition. But not as I thought., fever came visit me again. I slept around 3 hour on evening but not that work. Finally mom brought me to visit doctor. Doctor said my fever was over normal's body temperature. He suggests my mom to have a injection for me. And I agree. The next day, i absent to school again. Today i was absent to school AG...

20.09.2011 Happy 17th Birthday! :) Hohooo, im getting old one year again. But then the appearance and the height still the same:) Never mind, this is call young kay? xDD Recording to my memory, 8 friends wish me on 12.00 sharp. ThankQiu so much ya, i really appreciate it because u all remember my birthday and text me with long birthday wishes :) 20th i was absent to school due to some private reason. After that, we headed to Aeon cinema to watch The Smurfs  with Chloe, KY, him and me. Oh Yeah! It is the time to watch the movie :) Of course thanks Chloe's bf to lend his car for Chloe to bring us go watch movie. Firstly, Chloe drive to school to fetch my sister then she and him change places bcoz she dont know how to parking in Aeon car park :X On the way to school, he scream loudly == he damn scared Chloe drive >.< Then we started to bought ticket and watched the movie. We laughed beginning of the movie until the end. They're cute enough. I damn like it. H...

As your information, my grandfather had passed away on Mooncake Festival. Go through every single painful day, finally he has go to other world. It is good for him? I think so, at least he need not to suffer every painful from his wound. He got disease is diabetes, then stroke. Every cousin gathered in this funeral. We talked we laughed we cried together. Although we used to play when we were still child but the distance still far away, maybe this is because we not always together every time. However, i hope the relationship between we and the other cousin other getting closer. I have busy for this few day and of course tired too. Being tired is so awesome during night time. You can sleep well once you just lay on the bed :) Although I do not always together with my grandfather but his 'going' really make me sad. Unless he have stay my house before when he got stroke and I always call his as ah gong. Everything go to normal as usual from friday.. Really wi...

Trial is still progressing but im facebooking just now and blogging now xD Thought we have a small break because Monday is my school holiday- Mooncake festival. Mooncake festival is around the corner, enjoy mooncake and this big day with your families hehee :D The Smurfs my goodness, i want watch it badly. And I plan 15th (Thrusday) watch this movie with Chloe and him because the next day is public holiday and no exam :) Chloe, lets go?! Nasi Lemak this the one which i want watch it too ): Can i sekali gus to watch all movie? ): I dont have so much time to watch movie because trial is still progress my mom not allowed i keep going out :| *sad* Trial doesn't means trial. All tips be given and answer too lol -.- It is unfair. Because cannot test how level you''ve learnt on this two year and cannot cope your weak point to do well in SPM. but i do this kind of action too while Sejarah However, pass is the most important! HAHAHAA :) Ok la, stop here.. Bye :)   Ga...

Happy Holiday ya my friend, Enjoy the holiday with ur family or friend or book xD These day meet my best friend when im having my lunch or dinner. That is Emily and Bamboo :) Feel happy because didnt meet before.. Saturday I was going to KP for buy my dinner wear because cousin's wedding at Sunday :) Im so excited that day coming. No why, because long time didnt attend wedding and dinner wedding :P And i buy this cloth : I damn like it, suit my taste, not too sexy not too bao shou :P And im so hardworking to put two cucumber on my panda eye every night, I hope it is work for reduce my panda eye but i know that is not work. However, belum try belum tau hehee~ Nowadays, Loreal's brand have a advertisement to reduce dark eye circle It cost RM70.00, Okay im not a rich daughter or what so im going to save money to buy it, can i? Berdikari la saya :] dont want to use my parent money.. After holiday is our Form 5 trial. Trial? What the hell is that? It...

Hee ^^ Changed my blog background, did u all still suit with it? :) Well, tomorrow KY will be facing her trial, Now she is doing her Science revision in parents room with switch on the air-conditioning without watching television. U might be feel weird why must at parent's room? Hmm, i dont know too :P Lets wish her good luck :) She can do well her exam because she is clever xD People always ask me, what class KY study? C class i answered proudly. Ask me did i feel zi bei ? Sure do i but im still proud of her :) Today is the holiday, i didnt use my time wisely. Blogging and facebooking just now :X Nvm, after back from tuition i must away from my pc! I always think that, people no tuition but can get the good result, But im the one who tuition always get the kns shit result? What is the difference? No idea >.< Maybe, im always being cincai.. 每当做一件事 我都会告诉 快点随便完成快点了事 这就是我 :) Cincai is my personality :] I will solve it faster.. Bye :) Manage ur time wisely ...

Halo!! Im back :) *I know someone miss my blog so much hehee* Okay~ Say back these day.. Sure u all know what i did, that is prepare for my Focus II exam but how much i prepare still get the same grade Most serious is my BM and BI essay, i think i almost write until out of the title ): My mind always goes blank when i am writing. I do not know why. And i think properly, the answer is > i really suck in language even is writing. Is it a little bit too late? I think so, trial is around the corner, it is an important exam too. I do not have much time to on facebook and blogging anymore. I was try my best to away my lovely pc :) God bless me, please :] I do not want have any sense of regret in my heart. Totally NO WAY! Think about future. Im still blind. I do not know which way should i direct? I lost my way. Friend taught me i must set a target during examination so that i can more diligent to do well my exam. So maybe i will try this way to handle all the problem, ...

Olimpic Run for today :) But i am not going to run, just take t-shirt then back home :X Bad rite? Forgive me my bad-ness, kay? xD Then we go to Setia Alam play ground :P When i was playing.. Dont know what it is actually hee :D  This shadow of me and_Chloe I do like this photo so much :] Shadow could not see any weak point.. And I got to know that Olimpic Run's shirt just supply M L and XL size for us, -.- Then how was tiny person like me?! Omg~ Cant imagine, luckily I didnt run so that i dont need to wear it :) See, It was super big for me.. [Ignore my eye bags, thankss ==] Could not see clearly? Nvm.. Nah.. =='' I maybe can consider to take it as my pajamas? xDD  After back home, i sleep from 2.00pm untill 5.30pm :D First time i have sleep around 3 hour in the afternoon. Lastly : Favorites : Chocolate Donuts :] Handmade by my neighbour.. :

Photo of the day, me and my sis :) still have few inside Chloe's phone. Of course the red cloth on my shoulder is my sis one bcoz she have take part in kawad. That day was fun. First time i was going to rumah there :] There have a lot of ppl, although dont know who are them but they are willing to help me draw xD Two white line on my face of course is drawing :D And also my hand have their drawing, different rumah different drawing.. Miss Rumah A was shocked me 99 -.- With a distance to see 'her', omg leng lui but why so big size and 'her' leg was so thick With a near distance to see 'her', omg our JunWee!! Then, Andrew them and us scream loudly, without care other people were seeing us xD That was fun but halfway was raining very heavily, so Sport day have to postponed to 18/7. ********************* Last week, my hand suddenly appear some brownlish colour on my hand. Firstly, i thought i touch something's colour, But when i was washing my h...

I-want-to-be-strong. People should feels weird, why my URL put this address? Lets me tell u all, because i wanna to be strong. Thats easy :) *Dont throw eggss on me* :X 这两天我都一个人在上课， 后面的同学都tr了 好闷 好孤单 原来被丢下的滋味是那样的 幸好有JinWen和PeiWen陪我 不然我会闷死 我以为SiuHui会陪我 但是不出我所料 她也tr了。 为什么呢？ 之前不是明明已经讲好了吗？一起的。 现在呢? 我知道我不是你们的好朋友 可是至少也得顾虑我的感受吧？ 也许 我以前真的没有顾虑到Siuhui的感受 我时常抛弃她找Jinwen和Peiwen 我跟你说声 对不起 好吗？ 但是 这也改不了我跟你的关系 我很难当面的告诉你我的事情。 这才发现 同学都会跟隔壁的谈得来 但 我们呢？五年的同桌不是很了解对方吗？ 我们刚好相反。 我觉得我自己在当小丑 很可笑的小丑。 别人问我: ehh~你的朋友叻？ 我: tr了 做么你没有去的 我: 她们没有叫我。 我自知自明 我不是什么有才有艺的人 别人看不起我 没关系 我会在继续update我自己。 早知道 我答应JunWee我去Kawad 可是心总是在顾虑些什么 如果我大胆一点地豁出去 也许不会在我的初中五生活留下后悔。 现在的我很后悔。 我觉得我很像一个没有用的人， 中一、中二 我玩玩 还可以原谅 中三 我不专心考PMR很后悔 中四 我被人抛弃我没有心上课 中五 好多事情发生我好累地在处理 我学到什么？我学到玩而已-.- 我是否能在我的中五生活没有后悔的痕迹？

1 Murid. 1 Sukan. 1 Malaysia. My number :) All school have this running activity that organised by government. All of the students need take part in this activity, But i know some of them was absent, no appreciate :| Run with Chloe again today :) We lose to run in 30min :X We keep on walking only, As i expect, i thought i can run in 30 min, But failed! Xia shui! After running, whole body have no energy, Especially leg, feel thirst. Buying a milo ice for myself. After that, we watch the performace that organised by school, we enjoyed! Especially dancing, no need say rite? xD After school, stay back to watch movie but have already sold of transformer :X Even New jj too. Dont want stay back if i can 'count' it.. Wasting my time ._. xxx买了两份面包两包nudget两瓶水给我和玉够 希望那不是三分钟热度。

Hmm, nothing to describe, just same as last year. Ghost house always crowded of people == I want play!!!!! But always failed, kns~ At least i have played during form 3 rite? Hehee *consoling myself* LOL But im still enjoy that day :) With Chloe almost the time. And purposely go mahmmudah for just only eat hindumee when 12.25pm Luckily still didnt miss bus :D Conclusion : the last hari koperasi, i feels sad ): No more next time :\ xxx送李铠薪[一半]希望她永远快乐♥ 如果我说不开心是假的 我真得很开心 :D 我笑到见牙不见脸 ^^ 从来没有人对我这样好 我会好好珍惜的 :)

Yesterday, Chloe and me were going to attend DMC night. Before that, we went to KP for see Anthony :) He is tall enough and handsome enough xD But i didnt so minat him, heheee~ Actually we planed to go old town have a drink but have no place for us, So we walk ourselves go to Station One :D Chit-chatting over there, Telling some unhappiness for her. After something have happened only i realise that, Any unhappy thing or even happy want to share, i will only tell who i believe :) Then then then,  we go to school.. The theme of DMC night is danbo, :) Danbo is starting to be famous because it is cute haha Okay, stop talking about others, DMC , the last time i bought ticket from school, maybe the next year if want attend then i must ask other ppl help me buy the ticket. Beginning three of my classmate have their competition, they sing untill very nice and very pretty after make-up :] After group singing, we have a break time and it is so boring :X So we have our dinne...

讲真的 其实今天是有那么一点点的不开心 ): 当我听到朋友告诉我关于他的事情时 我在次胡思乱想。 我的心不断的疑问我自己 我是不是成为了他的代替瓶？ 对我所说的那些话是不是真的？ 我不知道 也不想打算知道 我怕的答案 是我所想的 :X 心 再次有乌云了 没关系 我能自己解决 :) Nowadays, i really like this two song as below xD Kindly press and heard it, It is nice enough :] 我会没事的 放心。。

Hellooooo :) My dearest reader, How are u all? Hehee, school have reopen And i am busy with my seni folio, keep drawing at friday But havent finish, still have alot :X And my result, suck I really disappointed on myself -.- Form 4 and form 5 life make me busy, I really long time didnt try take a nap at afternoon. When form 3, i can sleep from 3.30 until 5.30 Or Havent bath then sleep :X Dont say im dirty, if u really tired then will do like this xD Heheeee :) Hmm, Maybe i will not update constantly :) Busy! U know? Tuition homework and folio make me dizzy BUT Folio want to hand in on friday :] It is good. Hand in faster then i can concentrate do my math and account tuition homework. Aim this two subject hee~ I want get A God bless me, kay? I want update this two grade xD Stop babbling -.- I think im abnormal today, >.< Nothing special,  Connect wrong way LOL Oh yea, June and July have several activity at school, Parent day, sports day, Hari Koperasi, Kwan...

Actually today im going to attend junwee's party. Go through all difficulties and argue with someone, and that Bamboo call my mom to ask her permission let me go, but end up is her put me aeroplane :\ Luckily she didnt call me on that time, if not i will scold her :X And sorry for her that i send that kind of message for her, Sorry, Bamboo :| Holiday gonna end soon, How u guy pass your holiday? I pass my holiday with bored. This holiday not going to shopping, because sister keep driving car go for tuition at Klang. Petrol need money, rite? xD Didnt macam Chloe, always go until so far shopping :P And my tuition homework still not yet do, :S How? Lazy to do and no point to do it :X Two more dayss to go.. Enjoy this last two day ya, my friend C=

Just back from outside :) I like today hee~ Suddenly go a far far + cold cold + pusing pusing place without planing, Just go it after having our lunch! :0 First time for me, :) And also first time eat bah kut teh with them! :D I will save it intomy memory xD Left 1 more week.. She is the one who i always used to across the bridge =)

OMG! I cannot stay alive with this boring holiday :\ It is so boring until i gonna to die, And keep eat eat eat, I think im gonna fat soon :| Ok, i will try to control my mouth. :) Nowaday am addicted to : Box Robot Dont know what it is? Let me show u people :) Dalang : Phewww~ I feel it is cute, cute than domo But it is not that famous, I cant buy any decoration of it.. STOP HERE! :]

Hang out with Chloe on labour day, [ i know it is quite long tine :P] U can see clearly have two red dot on my face, PIMPLES! How 青春 am i? xD ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yesterday is not my day for me ): Going to Pizza at aeon and found my handphone, Huh?! Where it is my handphone? I thought it hide in my beg somwhere, But Chloe call to my phone i cant feel vibrat!!!! OMG! I begin to nervous -.- And ask Chloe faster back to school asap! Just realise i leave my phone at Siuhui's desk, how careless am i >< We sit texi back to school, i know it waste our money but handphone is most important rite? And i ask the texi uncle wait us at school gate. He did so. Faster rush to my class to get back my phone, Malangla, they are exam-ing. Conclusion : I got back my phone, lucky! :D Thankss En.Zain :) u are damn so good than the super kns shit malay teacher!.. Then we are heading to McD having our lunch, Got two ...

I have disappeared for quite long time :\ Sorry for not update recently, Sure u know what i busy. That is seni folio, akaun folio, exam and so tuition homework ): All of it was killing me so much. Currently life was normal as usual, Nothing to update, Just realise that many thing happened during form 5. I dont know how to describe, If u are me, to be sure that u know it :) And having exam for these week, I got to manage my time while doing essay :D Not same as last time, Masa hampir habis baru saya habis tulis :| Now before 10min I have already done and read back my essay. English, no any hope on it. Form 4 until now, just pass for one time. Teacher too chap or my english is so poor? Well, i will update my english :D 如果能 好想回到form1 & form2的生活。

30.4.2011 相信我的朋友们都知道这一天是什么日子吧。 很快的 一年了, 没有太多的感触 只是觉得时间过得好快。 快得连我都措手不及 非常记得去年的这一天 我等着他告诉我 九个月快乐 但是 他又再的提起分手这两个字。 很好 我成全他。 很多次的要求 我终于答应了 既然在一起都不快乐 何必勉强彼此 分开以后 才知道 其实在一起的时候我没有珍惜他 失去后才后悔 已经太迟了。 第一次谈恋爱的感觉 就是不同 第一次的感觉 没了。 第一次那么的关心自己喜欢的人 第一次觉得自己在别人心里很重要的感觉 是那么的美好 第一次牵起他的手 好大好结实 就像牵着爸爸的手一样 第一次发呆吃饭时 想起他以前所说的事情 傻傻的傻笑 第一次收到男生的礼物是情侣吊饰 第一次拥抱的感觉 好温暖。 第一次被叫薪的感觉 是那么的不同 天堂的日子后竟是地狱的日子。 第一次知道什么是 许下的承诺是那么的简单 真正要完成是那么的辛苦 第一次当笨蛋的相信他所说的话 第一次知道 不可以在那么的投入一段爱情 第一次知道失恋的感觉 第一次学习 拿的起 放的下 的 感觉。 第一次学习 如何面对被人家讲我是他的前女友 第一次学习 如何调整那种突然最喜欢的人一夜之间不要你的感觉 第一次发觉 依赖一个人越久 不能独立的日子 第一次感受到 告诉别人我们已经分手了的感觉 当在烦恼如何把友情的爱情都搞好时 他提出了分手 也许他也体会到了那种痛苦 把包袱放下 变得很轻松 分了后 要求复合 但 他不肯 我为这段爱情做了努力了 没有遗憾。 顿时 生活变得黑白色 要很慢的时间让它恢复五颜六色 付出的很多 最后的得到的是 [伤] (很熟悉吧？看回 原来。 ) 第一次的合照。 再见 所谓的初恋。 

Im still cant believe that, I have changed my phone :0 It was suprisingly that i will buy a new phone -.- What a big decision! Well, Still dont know how to use it yet >.< It know who are me but i dont know who are it LOL New life since Sunday ♥ 

Helloooo! My dearest reader, Finally exam has officially over xD Teehee. Students are definitely know what is the feeling of exam, It is so torture. Somemore cannot facebook-ing HAHAA! How serious am addicted to facebook? :0 Facebook is a necessary thing for seeing leng lui, like me :P Ppl should feel weird, Imma suppose to see leng zai, rite? But how? Leng zai do not attarct me x) So weird man! xDD ------------------------------------------ About today. I like all what have happened! x] Although sour by other but it doesn't effect my happy mood. And, im super like have many friend around me. Especially say hello when seeing them, But it is still not enough for me, Bcoz im not that famous ): I wanna make new friends.. Like somebody who have alot of friend from different form :P Recently meet a bunch of friend from 5A4 That is bcoz i often go that class, Something they would like to share with me :) This call as: 时常一个人走去她们的班 也是有好处的 xD Anyway, I do not regret that i meet all my...

Finally, all thing have solved. Our friendship was as strong as iron :) And for that shit girl, pls get away from our live. U are just so make me feel hate you. Shu shu~ get away! Today, i got my English exam paper. Of course always give the lowest mark as i expect. And she explain those question, i was so regret to choose the question that i have choose -.- Regret no use. Just add oil in mid-term exam. The most funniest thing is, she told us about someone wrote the essay about what be proud of Malaysian. That people wrote : Genting Highland as Geting Hiland Asam Laksa as Asam Langsana Bah Kut Teh as Bangkuteh Omg, it is damn so serious u know? xD Laugh die us, Xia shui betul :0

Im very freaking so damn dislike someone who doesnt know the truth But simply tell other people. WTH! Who u are? Do u have the qualificied to take part in this thing? NO!  U are just a passer-by. And do u know the thing more detail? No! U just heard what they say but didnt see what we sms. End up those thing we say have been cancelled, What for u so (keipo) har? TMD! I would like to scold her if i can. Didnt even see a such person who so big mouth, Diam la u, Just zip ur mouth. If u will be like this, then we will live with aman damai :) Luckily, what she say doesn't effect the friendship between us. But, i still couldn't know what is purpose she hide? Or this is calling as friend? True friendship must be anchored in honesty. Friend should never hide the truth from each other. Pek-cek! Is okay, we edi give up to ask more her thing. She wanted to tell or not to tell is her decision, We cant force her, too. But just hope she can honest with us, ...

 Yesterday was a torture day for me ): I hold tissue every minute, Tradisional Cina Medicine doesn't work for me, Then mom ask me to drink Panadol soluble But it is still not work :\ Luckily today not that bad :) Although still got flu flu . xD Eating chocolate is nice :) When u sick then it will be > ): So, drink more water my friend :D

This week, my school have basketball competition, Many different school come kwang hua. Today is the final :) Teacher was so good, let us go watch the competition, We stay there from 10.55am until 12.25 :D But end up our school lose. Nvm, unless still get no.2 rite? Better than no xD I most like to watch basketball competition, especially those player u know.. Just now, once they shoot in the basketball, we clap the hand loudly :) I like this situation! xD After PMR, the class-to-class basketball competition have attract me much x) So the conclusion is I like Basketball competition lah! Heheee  The considerate one gave me medicine, today. Thankss alot :)

Hello, My readers! Do u miss me? xD The reason i didnt update my blog is because having exam this week, But just four day oni, Tmr is Islam, wish luck for my malay friend :) Ok, exam for these day, really suck my brain :\ Especially Bm and BI essay, My mind always goes blank when i started to write, So, now im so regret to pass up those exam paper -.- Today was sejarah, Many of my classmate sleep during the examination, and im included :D It is so boring to read sej. Once open the book, omg~ my eye are going to close and my mouth non-stop open xD My Seni teacher say : Tulis kamu punya name lalu tidur lah. So cute :) every of my classmate laugh on it hehee Anti-Sejarah! And i think im going to fallen sick ): Beginning sore throat then now coughing. My mom ask me eat medicine yesterday, but i did not follow what she said. Good la, having cough today. Saying behli good for myself x) Take care everyone :] Nitezz :D